When I was at the chiropractor getting my neck adjusted again, for what seems like the millionth time, and a process that will likely occur for the reminder of my life, I asked her what my neck and hip was telling me. Yes, there are medical terms; degenerative disks, compression, slipping, pinching, spinal tension, withheld energy, osteopenia, blah, blah, blah. Those concepts didn’t quiet relieve my frustration for chronic pain, nor did they bring an explanation I felt I could do anything about. Being the intuitive healer she is saw my growing concern and a reaching for something else to sustain me. She began, “Robs, your vertebra are at a game of tug of war, these ones want to go this way, and those ones want to go that way….they pull, and slip and collapse into nerves and close off the ‘information highway’ to the brain and the rest of the body often leaving you with limited mobility, irritability, lightheadedness, migraines, digestive issues, shortness breath, depression and fatigue. Not all the messages are getting through, not all of your life force energy is moving smoothly; the vibration of your spinal cord resonates at a mock 20 rather than a steady AUM of the universe. You may find that you have a difficult time making decisions and are lacking flow and creativity.” In reference to my hip she explains it as a having limited mobility, it makes a little progress but then gets stuck when attempting certain things.
These statements came in clear, they rang true and as always my inner exploration has new waters to chart. Her description of what I am experiencing in my body is a perfect depiction of my current mental and emotional processes. I do feel at a tug of war, wondering if my pursuit of further education is compromising some aspects of my current life. I feel a pull from the cerebral/intellectual self and my intuitive self. I do have a difficulty making decisions. I do feel that I am often so stressed and over-multitasked that I could launch myself to Jupiter. I do sense that it is more difficult to get to the peace of the Aum than at other points in my life. I do feel lack of flow and creativity. I do feel that I get stuck in making progress in emotional aspects of my life. The beauty is that these are things I can recognize, accept and learn to manage and can change.
I respect the fact that there are legitimate structural concerns with my spine and hip, and I will still take my medicine, do PT get adjusted, and receive acupuncture and body work, but I will also take my healing into my own hands. Much of our wellness is in relation to our ability to address old injuries, abuse, unsettled emotions, unhealthy thoughts and trauma. I will listen to the messages of the body. I will create a space for the trauma of the body to have a voice that will bring liberation. I will honor its intuitive expressions. I am a firm believer that the body speaks; it has a language of its own and it holds the story of our life. As I focus my attention on the subtle bodies; the emotions, energies, visions and my thoughts, I will reveal the potential messages they hold as well as my capacity to be a powerful source of my own healing.
What is your body telling you? Listen with compassion, intuition and acceptance. Within us all are our greatest healers and teachers.
Many blessings,
Robin Afinowich
